Gwyneth Rolph sent us Part 3 of her participation in the 1996 GAT evolution. This is a patient recital of the growing insanity that pervaded Scientology and you owe it to yourself to read this so you can fully understand the mindset of the staff members who were trying to make GAT a reality. Every staff member contributed to this insanity and Gwyneth wanted to share her realizations before you dive into the mind numbing saga of life after GAT.
My Realisations – by Gwyneth:
During my years in the Church, I stuck it out because we had all been sold the line that this was the only way that we were all going to get up the Bridge. At the time, my own personal way of being cause over the whole process of how we were going to do that was to train people.
I had no idea that there were any alternatives to training or processing in the Church. I had never been made aware of the Freezone. I never bothered to search the Internet because I’d heard it was the same handful of troublemakers spamming online discussion groups with squirrel OT data. If I’m perfectly honest, the one critical TV documentary and the handful of critical newspaper articles I saw during my time on staff only lent credence to this idea in my mind.
The Church aggressively promotes the idea to its members that ANYONE operating outside its sphere of control is a squirrel. Therefore, they argue, you cannot obtain actual LRH tech from anyone else.
After speaking to one or two other people who had gotten out, I started to do my own research. What became patently clear is that the Church under DM’s regime has become the ultimate squirrel group.
This third part of my story covers my second staff contract, from approximately 2003 to early 2006.
I’d spent about three years off lines, during which time I worked to put my finances straight, got involved with another band, did various handlings to improve my health situation, and took a business course at a local community college.
Having had experience of supervising, word clearing and delivering the tech, working an ordinary desk job out in the big wide world rather stuck in my craw. On org staff, I had had the opportunity to train in a specialised professional discipline that enabled me to help many students and members of the public, and even if I hadn’t been amused at my TIP change from supervisor to word clearer, certainly the students in the org respected what I did. Effectively, I had gone from a person with professional standing and credentials (at least in the eyes of the org public) to office support staff outside the org, and I was frustrated.
I wasn’t immediately thinking of going back on staff, but I had been very seriously thinking of doing the full OEC to complement my business management studies.
So when one day I received a phone call from the Senior I&R (Inspections and Reports) asking me to come in for an interview “to find out why staff have left”, I saw nothing wrong in at least hearing him out.
We did the interview, and he gave me some references to go and read in Qual. I simply answered the questions, but didn’t give him any indication as to what I was thinking of doing. I went away and read the references, and then let him know when I was done.
“That was amazingly fast!” he exclaimed. “We need people who are fast like that to train as executives.”
So to cut a long story short, I found myself on a project prepare to go into the Admin Training Corps for the Day Organisation.